Life's changing around me, but I'm pretty much standing still...

Time to use this blog for its actual purposes (no, not just to annoy Chris like its been for the past few months or so). I'm at a really hard place in my life right now. I just feel like everyone I am surrounded by are making these huge life changes/decisions...grabbing life by the reigns and I'm sitting still...too scared to jump in.


I have two married friends Donna and Courtney. Can you believe that? Two of my close best girl friends are MARRIED. One of which happens to also be my newest cousin! Its exciting to me that they are both on these new paths in their lives, but I can't help but find myself longing for that next step...and frankly not because of being married, but to be doing something new. Which moves us along to...


I am so proud of my two friends Janae and Janelle. They make me feel honored to be their friend and when I think about how proud I am of them, tears come to my eyes (uh like right now). Janae is leaving tomorrow for a year of service in Bethlehem. Yup folks, one whole year. Janae has been off at school for the past four years, but there were always Christmas breaks, summer vacations and the occasional random visit. But this time, she's gone for an entire year. I'm still not sure about this whole situation, but I get I don't have much of a say eh? Joking aside, she makes me realize that life is full of opportunity, and you really need to just take it...take the risk and jump for it or its going to pass you by. Janae's life is a true example of a person being completely self-less to help others around her. 
Then there is Janelle. Janelle, I swear, is the most go-getter person I know. She has the personality where she'll tell me things and I say "no way" and then she makes it happen! She is off to Virginia for the next 4 years (i think 4, maybe 3) for law school. I'm sure she'll be back to visit, but I have recently witnessed the life of a law student and its far from leisurely. 


These girls and I have been through more experiences than anyone can imagine. Ups, downs and all arounds. I like to think that a little bit of me is down in Virginia, and will be off in Palestine...or at least I know a little bit of each of these fabulous ladies comes with me everywhere I go.

Then there is me. Jobless. Not sure of whats to come...honestly. It just feels like the world around me is taking a huge step forward, but someone is holding me back. Its not due to anything but...lack of opportunity. 


I hope this isn't coming off as so 'woe is me.' I do enjoy my life, and I'm learning to be less intense...a lot less intense in terms of my opinions and moods. I'll figure things out, I promise.


I do have a pretty great boyfriend. Had a great birthday! He got me 3 pandora charms and a 177 cake decorating set. We are great!

And for this I am grateful.