I started this blog off with a nice little lyric by my favorite band, The Honorary Title. The song is Along The Way and I love it. It explains a lot about my life lately, as I've been a little sad without knowing why. Part of me knows a little bit why, but part of me doesn't want to admit it...i'll figure that out eventually.
I'm super bored right now. I spent most of tonight playing Sims 3 and just straight chilling. Around 8:45 the phone rang and I didn't recognize the number. I answered and no one was there...I freaked out. Then my mom called, the number had called her too...so I freaked out less. Come to find out, it was my uncle playing a prank on me. Gosh Uncle Mike, you scared me!
I've been so tired lately. Planning crafts and chasing preschoolers around all day makes me exhausted, and now I'm developing a little bit of a head cold. I've been sniffling non-stop, it's really no fun, and I keep sneeeeeezing. Achoo...scuse me.
So I continue on with my rather boring life, sitting on the couch watching Ultimate Cake Off, eating some pretzels and drinking a Mike's Hard. Weekends don't feel like weekends anymore. I don't know, when you feel kinda lonely you don't look forward to time without work...just gives you more time to think. I'm happy believe me, but I get lonely...Chris works and my college friends all live kinda far away, so I just chill out. I have friends at home, but haven't seen much of them...we all changed at college, and I still love them so much but we just don't do things. This is partially my fault, I don't really call people...but I miss being able to walk down the hall to see Catie, or across campus with Cassie to hangout in Allison's apartment.
I went to visit school the other day. It's the same and different..which makes no sense whatsoever. It felt weird, its not mine anymore...it's not my home. It lost its magic I guess...the new cafeteria is cool, but doesn't feel like home...I hate that...losing something that was so important to me for 4 years, gone in a few weeks...It's still a lovely school, but I don't feel like it's my college anymore...and I guess that's because it's not. I say this sitting on my couch wearing a Merrimack shirt...whatttttt?
Other than my brief moments of sadness, which have been frequent lately, I'm quite content with the path my life has taken. I'm in a happy and loving relationship, I have a great job, and quite possibly the cutest class of preschoolers on the planet. I have an amazingly cute nephew, and a great family. I have friends who love and care for me...so I guess my life is good...yes...I guess it is huh? I'll be sure to reread this whenever I get emotional, if I can see the happiness now, I will surely always be able to see it.
And with that I guess I should go do something else, or maybe get some sleep...not much going on tonight...maybe more sims 3? pathetic?...yes. do i care?...not really.
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